Random thoughts

Over the last week or so, I finally got the feeling that I belong in the new school somehow. Even stranger, people seem to *want* to hang out with me, and not just the reserved, shy kind either, that I usually tend to befriend. This time its the popular kind too, like the Vice Head Girl and this other girl called Nikita-Opal (yes, two names, I kid you not), who's really sweet. But already, the amount of bitching and backstabbing is killing me. And I'm not just referring to a few isolated instances. This is a trend. Almost like a way of survival in a mad surreal world full of competitive, manipulative people. I still don't validate it.

Which makes me sound like some sort of saint, which is absolutely untrue. I did something not-so-nice and really unlike me today, just so I could keep these two friends of mine happy. I didn't hurt anybody though, that I would not intentionally do, but I told a lie...a couple, to get out of an uncomfortable situation and...I don't know...I don't like it one bit.

Anyway.

Nikita Opal called and told me about her break-up and then just some time ago Surabhi told me how she maybe needs to take a break from her relationship with her boyfriend since her life's a bit of a mess anyway, and she has got more on her plate than she thinks she can handle. Also, told me not to tell anyone. I told her to make sure her boyfriend doesn't go sleep with the photocopying-girl with the belly-button-ring.

Sometimes I can be a real prick.



I have so much studying to do. Definitely staying up tonight with constant coffee reinforcements to keep me well awake. Great. More unwanted calories. Story of my FAT life. Ugh.

And I fully intend to start preparing for my SATs again starting tomorrow. Oh yes sir.

AND of course, the biggest highlight of the day; I start my first day volunteering for the Teach India Campaign tomorrow, which is a nationwide initiative to teach underprivileged children. I am going to be filling in for another volunteer tomorrow so I will need to be briefed about my lesson plan beforehand. I really cannot wait. Finally, something I can do to make a difference, and which doesn't just solely revolve around ME.

I'll be writing about that tomorrow!


xx

Lilac Kitten