I am just very very tired right now. I guess I owe it to my erratic sleep patterns and fluctuating eating habits. I've been purging a lot again, and I cannot bother to keep my weight in watch either. I just know I am not gaining. Was 99 pounds the last I checked. Indifferent about that too.

Stressing about things, and just basically depressed I guess. 

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I don't know what it's going to take to put my mind in a positive tangent, I have thought of just about everything that's an option, and none of it seems even remotely capable of being helpful.

Maybe writing...I don't know. I think I'm going to go lie down. If only the Voice made it easier on me and let me take a nap after meals without reminding me loudly of the potential to pack on the pounds that way.

I hate all of this. Hate this.